In spite of the lovely weather, I feel strangely drained for energy today.
I’ve got this afternoons’ staffmeeting on my mind.
When they appointed me personalechef , I sort of thought not much would change. I have always felt responsible for things going well in the restaurant and for our guest having a good time, it comes to me naturally, and I like to try my best and love the feeling of doing a good job.
I realize I was naive, thinking that things wouldn’t change much. Sure, I have more chores and more responsability, but people have changed; my workmates have changed. They’re not so much mates anymore, they’re less chummy and I feel like there’s a distance between us, and I am a little sad about that. I realize it is probably normal but I firmly believe that giving good service to our guests starts with feeling good about working as waiters, and a good part of *that* comes from feeling good with your collegues.
Simple as that.
So this distance makes me worry; I try to see my collegues and meet them where they are, but I am afraid that I sometimes fail.
I have a few things on the agenda for the meeting today, and I am both thrilled to have the opportunity to try and motivate the staff and maybe change a few things for the better, but also afraid I will fall through.
Our staffmeetings have never been much about dialogue, and we have never spoken much about what we could do better, how we might communicate better and so on. I realize opening up this dialogue might bring on a storm of suggestions and issues that I will have to deal with, and I don’t know how to find a balance and make everybody happy. But I am hellbent on trying, I just hope I can do it in a proper way. I expect to listen a lot, but I don’t know whether it is wise, and I feel like I don’t know what I am doing.
There. I said it.
I don’t know how to make everybody happy, and I am not sure I should even try, I am not sure it is wise to allow everybody in on certain decisions. I have a pretty clear idea as to where to draw the line and I don’t think I can prepare better for opening up discussion.
But I know I will have to improvise. Which is not what I do best when it comes to people.
I think I might want to take lessons in leadership.